December 22, 2006
Randomly...
I met up with Jas for dinner today. At a restaurant called Graze at Rochester Park. It's a really cosy and nice place. Very exclusive.
She dropped a few surprises on me. And talked about dropping more of those surprises on me the next time we meet. All those Happy meals that I'm going to pay for.
It's so good to see her tonight. 9 years. I knew her when she was around my age now. Oops. Did I just give away her age? It's so good because I saw in her something I hope I can see myself in, in another 5 years.
The stories we could tell...
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My B.I course ended with a story of my teacher, told by himself. About facing your fears.
I just faced one yesterday. I clicked on a blog that I've been trying to avoid reading. It's changed soooo much. It's impressive. And I look at my blog layout and I think, ok, I need to work on this... sometime.
I faced the fear of knowing how much I don't figure in someone else's life anymore. And the words from the blog keep ringing in my head now. That few words. And I know it will take me awhile to hear the last of them.
Thank you, D. Thank you, Vain one. Just for being online. For the company, and for not thinking I'm the most ridiculous and stupid and silly friend you guys have.
I can't perform this anymore. I refuse to act like I can. I just want to speak my mind and stay a zillion pieces, unswept. Because I don't want to build yet another wall around the crumbles and keeping up the appearance of that wall.
xxx
I, again, felt like resting my head on someone's shoulders and take a long, long sleep. Been feeling that way a lot, these days.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 00:18